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We all Have the time….

We all say it and do it.  We are just so busy.

But who asked you to be this busy?

Were you forced or did your mind tell you that you had to be busy so you could let everyone know just how important your time is and that you just don’t have any?

This world has become so crazy with schedules and trying so hard to keep up that we forget we are in control of our calendars.

We are the ones choosing to run around and try and fit so much in and most of the time its wearing us down and we are so exhausted we forgot why we are doing what we were seeking to do.

This is where being intentional with our time and with our choices of what we pick is so important. I am speaking to mysef as well because I get caught up in over doing everything because I think thats what I am suppose to do.

And sometimes it is for a season but the greatest thing is realizing that we have a choice in what we put on our calendar and what we choose to do daily.

We all have time, it is just the lack of time management that we struggle with.

Today I am choosing to be intentional with my time.  I am reading,thinking, writing, asking questions, filing everyday. I am choosing how my time will be spent. I will have control over the day instead of the day having control over me.

Recap your day and see if you were able to do what you set out to do or if it ended up taking control over you. You can do it with your calendar and start reflecting and start choosing.

Do you know why you are doing what you would like to do with your life?


~Be the Light~


Life · Travel

I have the Travel Bug…

I love to travel.

Every bit of it.

The planning,

searching for the best price,

packing our bags,

getting my home ready for me to leave it,

the list to cross off,

flying on the plane,

eating airplane/airport food,

Staying at hotel with room service,

taking pictures and seeing new things

leaving all my responsibilities out the door

not having to plan meals,

enjoying my family,

All the routine of life getting thrown out the window and living out of a suitcase for a few weeks with only a few choices to make.

I’ve loved it for as long as I can remember.

When I was a kid my mom would come sit with me and list off all the exciting things that would be coming up. Everyday we would have something new to dream about. It was so fun to think of a change in environment. It created this excitement deep down in my belly of an adventure coming right around the corner.

I remember sleepy nights where my parents would pack all of us kids up in the back of a station wagon and the next morning we would be  in another state. I loved it. It created so many good memories. Even though we were not well off and my dad worked really hard to let us have a great life, they did a great job making our childhood full of adventure and they always tried to take us on a family trip every year even if it was to visit family, there was always something to look forward to.

As we are getting older and the kids are growing I find my love and dream of travel arising in my soul and it is in my plain view of a real possibility. So many years it was easy to make excuses why we couldn’t go but now it’s time! Right now its only about once or twice a year but I have made a decision where I will be able to go as often as once a month.

I made a life changing decision to see the world and I will never go back.

To see the world is to see with a new vision.  To learn, to Inspire, to help others see there is more to this life!

I am thrilled to see all that is in store for me in the next few days, months, years to come.

It’s adventures.

It’s memories.

It’s fun.

And It’s appreciation for everything that I have.

#choosethismoment #choosetoday

~Be the Light for all to See~




I ask myself this one question…

Awake. Love. Think. Speak. Be walking trees. Be talking beasts. Be divine waters.
C.S. Lewis, The Magician’s Nephew (Chronicles of Narnia, #6)

If today were my last day to be alive …. Would I be happy with what I’ve accomplished?

Is this what I’d actually be doing if I knew I would not awake tomorrow?

many days the answer is no.

I still have so much I want to do and see and be.

How can I be satisfied with my life knowing I’m not where I want to be or that I haven’t done all I want to do?

can I be content?

or is it ok that I want more  and I actually won’t ever be truly content until my final day comes on this earth and I reach my Heavenly Father?

The Christian says, ‘Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exists. A baby feels hunger: well, there is such a thing as food. A duckling wants to swim: well, there is such a thing as water. Men feel sexual desire: well, there is such a thing as sex. If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. If none of my earthly pleasures satisfy it, that does not prove that the universe is a fraud. Probably earthly pleasures were never meant to satisfy it, but only to arouse it, to suggest the real thing. If that is so, I must take care, on the one hand, never to despise, or to be unthankful for, these earthly blessings, and on the other, never to mistake them for the something else of which they are only a kind of copy, or echo, or mirage. I must keep alive in myself the desire for my true country, which I shall not find till after death; I must never let it get snowed under or turned aside; I must make it the main object of life to press on to that country and to help others to do the same.’
C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

And to think of all I have to or more so what I want to accomplish when there never seems to be enough time, enough days, enough mind, enough me, to go around.

I get myself all worked up and then I just turn numb because I am on overload of information trying to find everything I want to be and to do.

I then realize I was given my heart desires and that I’m suppose to live out my dreams. They were put there for a reason and day by day I do get to where I’m suppose to be even though it seems like it’s taking forever.

I then look back and realize so much has changed. There has been much good in my life. I am truly blessed.

That’s what living is all about.

So if today was my last day would I be happy with where it ended?

Yes I would because I know that I have done all I could have done and all I was supposed to have done for this time and I am joy filled because I was made for another world.

In this life I will strive to make each moment count even when it’s painful, even when I’m longing for more. I will find beauty in every moment because I choose it. I can’t do it alone though only by the grace of God I find the beauty worth living for. In knowing this, I’m content.

We are given our paths and we get to choose how they go, even if we make a wrong turn, good can come out of it.

“We all want progress. But progress means getting nearer to the place where you want to be. And if you have taken a wrong turning, then to go forward does not get you any nearer. If you are on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; and in that case the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive man.”
C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

I choose this moment and every moment, everyday.

#choosetoday #choosethismoment

Be the Light for all to see~



“It comes the very moment you wake up each morning. All your wishes and hopes for the day rush at you like wild animals. And the first job each morning consists simply in shoving them all back; in listening to that other voice, taking that other point of view, letting that other larger, stronger, quieter life come flowing in. And so on, all day. Standing back from all your natural fussings and frettings; coming in out of the wind.”
C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity


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Creating our own Mission

When I  first started my blog I wanted to complain about having a type 1 diabetic and celiac son. I wanted to complain about being a mom and a wife. And then I just wanted to complain period.

Then later I thought I could do something towards health  or something of the other and I had a million things I wanted it to be about but I could never quite feel it and get in my groove.

With so much complaining, all I wanted was it to be something of an outlet but not an outlet that was me whining, having a pity party, day in and day out.

One night as I lay in bed trying to figure out what I was wanting in life, I heard These words “choose today”. I was tired of being negative and whining . It wasn’t getting me anywhere, which came about my thoughts on how I would CHOOSE today.

I thought, I can choose today to be so much more.

To make a difference. To be who God wants me to be. To be who I want to be. Though I struggle and it’s hard, I still get to make that choice.

As I have been in the process of changing my thoughts and my perception, I have really been trying to figure out what I want and how I want to portray who I am. I had this thought in my mind but I couldn’t see it clearly, It kept changing. I kept growing.

Today my blog is about inspiration.

It’s about being a mom and a wife.

It’s about the ups and the downs and all the in between.

It’s about making dreams with my husband and seeing sometimes that the other ones may go away.

It’s about stepping out and owning a business while trying to raise our kids and do so much we never thought was possible by just having a little faith.

It’s about sharing my love of adventure and travel and photography and all the little things that make life seem so special and to create memories.

It’s about not always getting it right but sharing that it’s ok to be down, it’s ok to be up, its ok to enjoy all the little moments.

It’s about showing my kids how to keep hanging on when the going gets tough and to come out stronger in the end.

It’s about teaching them to be so much more than they could ever see possible and for us to be so much more than we thought we ever could.

It’s about creating the moments that make up our life and that we get to choose how we react in those moments, good and bad.

Each day is a new day.

I get to choose how I want to make it.

It may take time to break the bad habits and to get where your goal is but each moment adds up to bigger moments until you have finally reached your goal and then you are ready to make a new one.

It’s about making those moments exciting and finding the laughter when all we may seem to find is sadness. It’s about sharing my story so I can hopefully inspire someone else to share their story and we can all create a bright shining light and help others to see their life is worth living.

It’s worth thriving!

It’s worth making all your moments count. It’s about not taking anything for granted. It’s about being thankful for all things- every little moment!

And so here it is, where I want to share with you how to, choose this moment, today, even when sometimes we don’t feel like it.

It is not possible for it to always be perfect or for us to always be happy. We are going to have down days and bad things that may happen but if we can choose how to grow in those moments and be grateful.

If we could share our story to  help someone else who may feel all alone and let them know, hey you are not alone in this. You got this. You can make it through that trial. You can make it through today.

All you have to do is choose today, choose this moment right now and I promise it will all be worth it!


#choosetoday  #choosethismoment

Be a Shining Light for all to see!!



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What my heart longs for


Do you know what it is that makes you feel alive?

I’ve been on a journey. It’s taken me a long time to figure it out, well actually, I’m still figuring it out but I did realize what my heart longs for.

I’ve realized one of my true passions.

For as long as I could remember being married, in love and having babies was all I could think of. I got married young, I was 19 and my husband was 21. We had no idea what life really had in store or what love and marriage truly meant. We would learn the hard way what those vows we had made before God and our families would mean and how important it was to keep our lives on the right path.

wedding pic 1

All I could think of those first few months of being married was how I longed to be a mom but we had decided we would wait 5 years and get financially ready and enjoy each other as a young married couple.

Sure you can make plans and that’s all well and good but I believe God had other plans because 7 months after we were married, we found out I was pregnant. We did not feel ready. Nothing was as we planned but it never truly is.

Secretly Even though  I was scared, I  was also really  excited.  I knew it messed up our so called plans but I could not imagine having a baby with any other man and I was ready to start our little family. We were so young and had no idea what a hard time we would have trying to grow up together and raise a young child at the same time. We were just kids ourselves and then we would be raising kids.

But then we kept going and I have to shout it from the rooftop….. ITS ALL WORTH IT!!!

Every tear,

every laugh,

every moment.

Why ? because I want it to be and because it is.

Then even after all the hardships of being young, trying to grow up and not be selfish, trying to put each other first, raising babies, trying to find our selves, changing locations to moving to a new state with no friends, trusting when it’s not deserved, brutal and painful honesty, forgiving when we don’t want to,forgiving when we do, saying or thinking things we wish we hadn’t , wishing we had said things we didn’t, laughter, tears, heartbreak, communicating when we don’t want to, financial hardship, new jobs, new ideas, coming together when all we want is to do it alone, following in our beliefs, spiritual struggles, health issues and pretty much all the in between; we  went on a wild ride and held on tight.

We disliked each other. We loved deeply. We loved painfully. We hurt each other. We wanted to  give up, but we held on to each other.

Now almost 17 years  and 3 children later what have I learned?

That my heart still longs for true love and marriage and raising my family. Even when there’s all these other things that try to get in my way my heart knows what my heart wants. And I still love my young love and my heart beats for him and only him even when we see all of each others flaws and we still don’t get it right every single time, we love with a deep, sometimes painful, but real love.

And I realize my true passion-  it’s my family. It’s growing in strength through all life throws your way and not giving up even when that seems like an easier route


With that I say be blessed. Hang on tight. Love deeply even when it hurts. Find what makes you alive. Find your passion even if it’s as simple as just being you.

live loud, run wild and be free!

#choosetoday #choosethismoment

Be The Light for all to see



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Disappointments and Failures


“The question is not whether we will die, but how we will live.”

– Dr Joan Borysenko, medical scientist and psychologist (b.1945).

We have all experienced one, sometime or another. Disappointments or a failure that is.   Did this affect how you choose to live your life? Did a certain disappointment affect you as a child and make you the way you are today? Or maybe not even as a child but in your adult life? Or has a failure stopped you from choosing your dreams?

Definition of DISAPPOINT

transitive verb
: to fail to meet the expectation or hope of : frustrate <the team disappointed its fans>



noun 1. an act or instance of failing or proving unsuccessful; lack of success:

I have had many disappointments. And I have had many failures. Even more so as an adult, that have made me question everything I believe in. I have failed or feared of failing which makes me question every dream and put fear in the place of living. I’ve questioned God. Why god, why do we have to suffer in this painful world? But then on the flip side there is so much beauty yet so many of us can ‘t even touch or see a glimpse of it and I ask why?

Its hard when you are in your lowest of lows and trying to make a choice to come out of the dark and back into the light. We really do have a choice, a tough choice, but its our to make. Our choices are infinite in measure.  Will I let life’s disappointments change me? Will I let them overcome me and make me worthless and feel sorry for myself? I can honestly say I have let the darkness take me and poison my mind. My thoughts tell me I am worthless. I am a failure. I am not good enough.  But I stop it, I shout at them at the top of my lungs, I have made a decision to fight those poisonous, all consuming thoughts.  I will choose the impossible and choose it today as it is overtaking me. I ask myself what choice will I choose today to make a difference?! To love myself, to be joyful even in sorrow, to smile, to help others and as I list these out I realize the infinite amount of positive decisions I can replace the darkness with. I can use a bad situation and change myself for the better and to really live life, learning how to enjoy every moment it brings through sorrow, through joy, through life and through death.  I have to choose to decide what to do to face my fears and to overcome disappointment. Life can be sad and painful but it can also be an absolutely, positively amazing and beautiful experience. It is still a work in progress but I am taking the steps to find myself and to choose a more positive way. If I  choose to let my letdowns define me in a positive way than I have actually become a better person. I am stronger. I have more faith. I am one with my spiritual soul. I can feel. I can actually feel the spirit within me. I become alive and my eyes have opened and I am awake, really awake!

We have a choice to be interconnected with the spirit and our earth world. And in this Earth we need to find our purpose. What path to take? How will we let our choices affect us? How will we let things we have no control of take us over? Our minds polluted, sad, lost, our souls fighting for good and evil. All is not lost. Even when we feel it is. What do you really want out of life? What can you do to make a difference or to fulfill your purpose in this life? Can we take a bad moment and change it for the good to help others? I believe so. How do we do this? I am still figuring that out but I know by helping others to realize that we all are really not that different. We all have our wants, our needs, our lifelong dreams and we also have our bad things and the feelings that we are worthless or that there’s no reason to try any longer. Fight, make that choice to get on the right track. Be positive. Face your fears. Choose the impossible! Luke 1:37 “Nothing is impossible with our God”   I can let my sadness overcome me and take my mind and my soul or I can say hey sad pathetic life I throw you out and I start fresh. And I will share that with others to let them know, you do have a choice!

When  a sad event happens  such as when my son was hospitalized and diagnosed with a disease he will have forever , I felt all was lost in this world. I felt that everything in our world was tumbling down and no one understood my pain. No one could feel it because they weren’t going through it. Its hard to keep smiling and saying yeah this is our new normal, everything’s fine,  but really I wanted my old normal. I let my old normal overrule my thoughts and let that consume me.  Some may not think diabetes is a big thing but it is something that silently affects you and its painful to watch your child suffer when there is nothing you can do about it. I know people live with this disease all the time and they have all this cool stuff and man made insulin to help control it but that didn’t matter to me. I want a cure. I don’t want a stupid pump that we have to worry about getting wet and sites falling out,  and not working properly and paying for medication and supplies. Or stupid insulin injections and making sure anytime we go somewhere we are always prepared for all situations. As for now the rest of his life will be worrying and making sure we are on track to keep him alive and as healthy as we can. Watching my babies body become bruised and scarred from all the injections and site changes,well It sucks,Plain and simple. He has lost a part of his childhood. The freedom to be a kid. When my son cry’s to me that he just wants to be a normal kid, it breaks my heart. He has to think about his choices and the fact this disease is about living or dying  every day.  I thought of all the would of’s, could of’s, should of’s and blamed myself for not being able to have a healthy boy. I got angry. I hated God. I hated this world. I did not understand why these things have to happen. And no one could tell me why. Its just part of life. We all suffer and some of us deal with it and some of us don’t. I was in complete darkness. I wanted the past and could not look to the future. But then something changed in me and I started to fight those feelings. God placed dreams of hope in me. He shook me back alive! I started to realize that we could still live, even in our new normal. I had to make a decision of how positive I could be to help my son to have the best life given his disadvantages of living a life of constant uncertainty.  I believe in fighting that sadness and sorrow that polluted my mind.  I believe in an all powerful God. I decided that I believe in healing even if its not in this world or our lifetime. I believe in the Holy Spirit!  My soul is no longer lost. I can say I am truly living.  I feel joy again, I feel alive again! I had to choose this. I had to fight my mind telling me this life is worthless and nothing is worth living for. I had to fight the sadness and darkness that all consuming pain that was overtaking me.  But this is a lie from the pit of darkness. No darkness is going to take me over. I choose the Light!

I believe as a human being we have to go through storms and in that storm we find God. There is a spiritual fight for our souls. What will win? The light or the dark? I still question why we are on this earth but the more I question it, the more I am coming to realize I may never really know that answer until I face death. What I have come to know is we are made to love, to be love and to feel love. We are made to dream and to have hope. That’s all we want. We are made to experience life in all its possibilities. We are made to see beauty and to feel pain but to find our self and to find the dreams that have been lost. We are made to help others when they are stuck in that darkness and can’t seem to come out. That is the object of finding our mission in life. Love, beauty, hope, pain and sorrow. It all intermingles as one and how we deal with it.

We have Infinite choices- what choice will you make when you have faced disappointment?

“When you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”

– Morrie Schwartz, American educator and writer (1916 – 1995)

“… almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

– Steve Jobs, American Entrepreneur, Apple co-Founder (b.1955)


If you Could, Would you?

DSC_0287What if you could start your life over? Or pick a part of your life that maybe you are unhappy you took a certain path and you could change that decision?Would that be a good thing? Sometimes its better that we made a mistake in life and learned from it then to start over but I still wonder. I have asked this question, for my life, many times. If I was not so young when I got married or had babies so quickly, how would my life be today and would I be happy or still trying to figure it out. I think we are still trying to figure life out no matter what though. And we are given certain paths to choose from. One road may seem like we took the wrong turn but maybe we really needed that wrong turn to grow stronger or learn something or even make us remember to breathe in the little things and not take anything for granted.

I am stronger today than I have ever been in my life but there are days where I am beat down and not feeling so strong. As I look back at me a few years ago I can see a different and better me. It has taken a long time to get here.  This last year and half has had me truly questioning everything I ever knew was right or what I thought may be right. I think I will always research and investigate and keep an open mind from now on. There is just too much to not really check it out. And every human being is different, with their own mind and their own thought process, with different backgrounds in the way they were raised or events that have happened, good or bad, that makes each one of us have a  story that is different from one another. You may meet someone who you think believes the same or thinks the same but I have found this is just not so. What this means to me is, I will embrace others ideas and not change my past but I will only change my actions today. I will live in this moment I am living in right now. I will learn from my every second and I will take the moments that are special and not throw away the negative but that will not be my main focus. The truth is really in the long run those little pieces of negativity could be something amazing or have helped me be who I am today.

I am thankful I chose to marry young and be a mommy at a young age. It has been tough and I may not love every second of it but I do love it.  I am happier today with my husband than we ever have been and even though we make dumb decisions which sometimes make us suffer and feel like our world is crumbling down, we have learned to do it together and everyday is a growing, learning experience. I am happy we have our three kids and the way we are choosing to raise them even when I question myself sometimes, overall my kids are perfect in my eyes and they are happy so that what matters.  I may decide to change something today that could either break my future or save my future but I will be glad in the end I chose that because we are ever growing and changing our minds about anything and everything. Don’t grow and be old and grumpy, instead laugh and live and never ever stop your love. Its all about the human experience called life!

(I saw this sign the other day and it made me laugh) Boy, can this be true!Image