I don’t feel like it. None of my regular should be doing adult list is getting done today. Though I planned on it. I have so many things that I should be doing today. And I should be guilty because I am not doing it.
But instead I woke up and thought I need a day. Just one day to do something that is not for everyone else. I might break if I don’t stop adulting today. I gave myself a free pass of a no guilt, day off. Nothing on my regular routine is getting done. And I absolutely LOVE it!!!
I can feel it now. The break down of who I am choosing to be and the old me wants to take over and give in and give up. But you see I can’t do that path anymore. I don’t want that sad life anymore. So I choose a down day.
Cleaning? Nope. Showering?Nope. Getting dressed?Nope. Working? Nope. Exercising? Nope. Laundry? Nope. Cooking? Nope. Crossing off my to do list I should finish? Nope.
The list goes on and I don’t want to. Not today.
I feel when it starts to creep in and I recognize it. I know when I have been doing too much for everyone else. I am spinning in circles and it’s time to reassess where I want to go. Where I want to be so today is the day to do that. To sit in my quiet, soak in the sunshine and the alone time and write and dream and just BE.
Today it is almost 2:30pm and I am still in PJ’s reading and journaling and deciding to write a blog post. I have no one here to take care of today and I am enjoying it. The solitude of my house called my name and I have decided to throw everything I should be doing out the window.
It is just one day. Everything will still be there tomorrow and next week and the next. So today I am doing my Stop doing list. I need a break.
Will you choose a stop doing day? We all deserve it. It is good for the soul.
~Be the Light for all to See~